The journey...

      It has been about a month since my last radiation.  Right after the treatment I lost my voice for 2 weeks.  It wasn't fun.  Coupled with no voice my throat was still pretty tender and swollen from the radiation treatment.  As the doctor told me that even after you are through with radiation the treatment still continues on for a while longer attacking the cancer cells.  So with that being said  I took on the pain (with the help of pain meds for sure!) 
    I had a follow up appointment with my doctor at radiation today.  Things are going well.  We did talk about sometimes the sore feeling I get around my scar but he said that was do to the building up of scar tissue.  I have some exercises I can do to help strengthen the area.  My next appointment will be next week with my oncologist to see how my counts are doing and how I am.  I will have my follow up scans in June sometime since I have to wait 2-4 months after radiation.  They like to wait so they can make sure my new tissue and cells have time to be doing what they should be doing and also that the cancer cells are decreasing and or gone!
     My hair is coming back pretty good.  I am still wearing hats and scarves because the growth rate is pretty funky!  Right now I have quite the mullet going on :)  I really think Billy Ray Cyrus is one of the few who can wear it and it looks like it fits him.  I will probably go in for a real hair cut towards the end of May...we'll see.  Also, my strength is  coming back little by little.  I feel better and better each day.

    A friend of mine  (thanks Schmitt!) posted a quote on her FB page that said---"I strongly believe that everyone's path is already laid out for them. The journey is the best part!"  Well  it got me thinking  about my own path and journey and why some people's are harder than others. I am not claiming to have all the answers by any means but perhaps no matter what is thrown at you good or bad it is what you make of it and all that is around you.  I am trying to fully grasp what has happened to me in this past year.  I have had a many people tell me that my body has been through a lot but I know I haven't really taken the time to think about what all that means.  Back in at the end of July in 2009 I found out I was pregnant and then after having Audrey 3 1/2 months later I found out I had cancer.  So yeah I think I would say my body needs a chance to rebuild since it's been through a lot!

     I am thinking one's journey doesn't have to be so grand to make it stand out to others, I do believe that your journey once again is in our own hands no matter how big or small.  It doesn't do me any good to wonder why I got the "golden ticket" because the fact is it has and it did.  Now the question for me is what is next?  I am excited about what is going on around me and look forward to turning yet another page in this on going journey.

Aww the wonders and possibilities of it all....

“We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey.” --Kenji Miyazawa